TALICEE'S JOURNEY

New Look on Life. Ok, I thought last week was bad, this week has been just as bad. So, I am changing tracks now. Yes, I am very heartbroken on the news of May matches until the 30th. According to our agency, we have no 31st LIDs. Which is good. Our dossier was actually mailed on the 31st. Anyway, I have decided to look beyond the hurt and keep going. The uncertainity of CCAA has caused me to rethink things. I will now begin to look at thing differently. I have done all of the list things that I can do. I have picked her clothes that I will take. Packed and unpacked so that we have only 2 pieces of luggage. I am now going to focus on the rest of the school year. Baseball season has started and the boys are all over the county. This will take much of my time. I am also going to work on reading the bible through in a year. I feel I have not given my spiritual life the work out I should be giving it. My focus now will be on my current family. If we get a referral in April, then well be it. I am not going to dwell on it any more. I will be presently surprised if we do. I then will work on packing again and what needs to be done then. Life is too short to be living by the computer. Like someone said last week, the computer and boards are like meth. I feel like a drug addict. I am now only going to check e-mails and the boards once a day. If I do not change things, I am going to go crazy waiting. I have many things to keep me busy. Summer is coming and school will be out in June. I guess God had the plan of us traveling in the summer. This is actually easier for us. We do not have to worry about our children while traveling. That is what grandparents and aunts are for. We can save more money for the trip. We can collect donations for the orphanage. I am beginning to see that it is in God's own timing. I am better today than yesterday and each day will get better. Just keep praying for us and Talicee. We will get there, we just don't know when. All in God's own timing.